i feel so bad today..
don't know what to do..
don't even know how to let this feelings out..
the feeling of upcoming breakthrough...
i don't have the mood to say anything...
i just want to let things go..
am i selfish to myself?
i wonder what would happen if i burst everything out...
so as usual.. i keep it safe in my heart and thinking alone...
i'm not a loner.. but i feel, it's easier to not to burden the people near me...
i used to say everything out and let my feelings exposed to my roommate...
but she's not here today until night... she went to USM this morning, got some kind of meeting..
but that's fine..
everything i need is a space and time to understand what i want in my life..
not that i want to be alone.. (i don't know if that could happen..)
i want to sort everything back in one piece as i have scattered them around...
i want my true life when it was in 3or 4 years ago... with someone i loved the most...
i know that i have issues and drama,drama, drama ahead of my life...
and i want to bring them into piece right now...
i want a full relief...
that's want i wanted the most............
